yeah.. I got bored and made another blog.

Mainly cos I don’t have much control over this blog. I can’t change any cool layouts.. thats why this looks a but less appealing. and no one can comment on this blog.

But if i feel like it, I can post on here. cos I cant add links on Livejournal. Its like.. giving me one journal to write something specific. can’t organise my blogs like this.

so if ppl want to look, here it is:

http://lesleisha.livejournal.com/

so yeah.. feel free to post comments

After the exams:
- catching up with Steph once she comes back
- continue organising my 21st. there is one place where I really wanna go but I wanna ask them some questions
- catching up with high school friends
- Ichipan with Phe and co. I haven’t had ichipan since like.. forever.
- finally attending meetings in my slightly big uniform lol! I don’t feel like a newbie anymore XP

After hopefully successfully completing second year:
- possible berry picking in the summer. go to Sunny Ridge with Steph and Kym and other ppl who wanna go
- a vacation somewhere in VIC with high school friends. I missed out on Schoolies so this is a great way to hang out again.

Including you, you, you, you, you, you and YOU! *points at you*

At the beginning of a scenario (a bit like roleplaying) I was faced with the worst first aid given to my “patient”. If I was to be called to a job like that… I’d be banging my head against the wall… Alternatively, I could kick the ppl who did ‘first aid’……….but I cbb.

Instead of making our ‘patient’ better, they made it worse. MUCH WORSE!

ok…. burns.. everyone should know you run the burn under cold water for 20mins. (doesn’t have to be 20 mins…) JUST water! not oil or mayonaise or soft drinks or beer or vodka and certainly not an ANTISEPTIC LIKE DETTOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was sent to a restuarant to a man who was washing or something… he was wearing a thick plastic apron when hot oil splashed on his chest and abdomen. *note plastic stuck to skin there*

Co-workers ripped off the apron (big no no!!!!), put dettol, and placed a cold chicken on his chest *very disturbing image there….*

well… the chicken is just funny lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t stop laughing (lol i’m such a bad paramedic xP)

Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
and dont you dare using cold turkey!
Halfling says:
lolol
=3
i won’t
I was kidding
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
i know you are
Halfling says:
then why yell at me for? =O
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:

*having a distrubing image of a turkey on top of the chest*
Halfling says:
lolol
now i can’t get it out of my head
D:
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
lmao!
“…. is the man the serving platter?”
Halfling says:
D:
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
my chicken is raw! and it’s not seasoned!
Halfling says:
lol =3
it’s seasoned
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
o.o
Halfling says:
just not how you want D:
Łέѕιєφ 洁媚康 |[Kawaita Sakebi]| says:
………………..LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Actually in Japan, they have Body Sushi Platter (research at your own will) but.. that’s completely off topic lol!

But yeah…… I realised today that basic first aid is essential!

Random stuff in no particular order:

1. Laptop battery went flat, charger didn’t work. Took it to a computer shop for a new charger. Laptop still won’t charge. Found out the charger damaged the laptop. Possibly the connector.
2. Dreading uni work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m actually looking forward to the 5wk holiday (?) mainly so I can (1) spend more time in st johns (2) catch up in gym as often as I can (3) catch up with friends maybe (4) catch up on shows like Glee, masterchef, and Merlin
3. Scenario exam has changed and structured for 2 ppl. Finding a partner is like asking a guy to a formal. Just a tad less embarrassing.
4. I have the urge to cut my hair. But I need to grow it a lot more. I also have the temptation to dye my hair blonde. Just the fringe tho…. Don’t know what shade of blonde yet. But I also don’t want to kill my hair….. *sigh*
5. Hmmm… sleepy….
6. For some reason….. my black pants are slowly disappearing. I always wear them for casual and st johns….. I had like… 4 or 5… now I found 2 pairs… weird…. They were gone since I moved.. still can’t find the rest.
7. I just bought a flexible keyboard and it’s harder than I thought.
8. I may have to be careful with what info I want to expose from now on lol!!!
9. Ok…. If there is a rumour going around….. let’s get this straight: I’m don’t have a b/f (quit pairing with ppl I work with), I am not dating and wth… I’m not 16. Lol off topic there. Yes there are ppl I like but I’m making no effort cos (1) focusing on work and (2) I forget easily so with time, I get over it. even tho I’ve been playing ‘Mr Mysterious’ by Vanessa Amorosi over and over and over and over again.
10. I want to sleep now *yawn* nite nite

I think it’s just stress that taking me through this roller coaster ride. I haven’t felt so much emotion and feelings in such a short period of time.

I’ll become from cheerful and happy to extremely peed off to ‘lets-go-back-in-time’ mode to ‘i-think-I’m-in-love~’ to CBB!!!! To quiet and blank to “wth-just-happened?!?!” to being paranoid etc.

*cough*………… *sigh*

I can sense that ppl in my course think that I’m going to throw the towel soon. Lecturers, friends, ppl that know me but I don’t know them… etc… I just always have this blank look all the time and don’t really put in a lot of effort. But I really do like this course and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Yeah, I have to suck up to those irrelevant subjects and tests and assignments and exams. Everytime I look back I really wonder how far I’ve become. I can’t tell if I really changed since I left Monash.

Sometimes… actually most of the time, I feel like I don’t do enough. I feel like that there’s nothing that I can do that no one else can. When I finished my CWI assessment (which is like knowing how to use equipment and clinical skills), I didn’t really feel proud of myself. Learning how to use the equipment is something everyone can do. I can prob teach my nephew and he will know how to use it.

Super nice assessor (apparently the same guy who some girls went ‘head over heels’ with…. Ah well.. he’s not my type XP): I have ONE issue with you tho.
Me: …. Was it the RSA? (Respiratory Status Assessment -> my weakness)
Assessor: nope. None of what we just did.

Me: (I think I know what it is….  The usual one) tell me.
Assessor: confidence

(I knew it)

I’m trying to get it back. That’s why I’m a volunteer in St johns. Made lots of friends ^.^ but apart from gaining friendships, I still need to prove to myself that I can do what I need to do. Assess and treat.

Last weekend, I went to my first ever duty even though I had no uniform. And I was extremely lucky that I get to be one of the 4 Health Care Professional Students that ride in mobile cars. Which means I can act as a student paramedic. The event was The Great Train Race at Puffing Billy and it’s a 13Km race/ fun run/walk and there were about 3000 ppl participating. So chances are that we’re going to have a good case.

I had a divisional nurse (took me half a day to realise who he reminded me of) and a guy I know cos he’s in my division but I don’t see him often. I didn’t know him very well… I had mixed feelings about him but I treated him like almost every guy in my uni. But like I said, I didn’t know him very well so it’s sort of like the first time I met him.

We fell for the strategic hole that the *manager of the whole eastern st johns crew* made. We had to follow the back of the pack while *her* crew will wait at the finish line. We didn’t realise the pain and torture we had to go through until the race started.

Let’s put it this way – there is a difference between the racers, and those taking a lovely stroll. And we’re driving a CAR! My car will hate me if I had to drive <5km/h… the engine heats up pretty quickly. But during that time it was the opportunity to know each other. Yes we were THAT bored! I should’ve brought my books to study dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!! We were so bored that we even convinced Headquarters to catch up with everyone else! Victory~!!! We found out we only needed to cover the first half of the area, and we had to go straight to the finish line. And while that happened, we got called to examine one of the racers who had collapsed 500m before the finish line (ouch!!!!) lucky we were at the finish line when we were called. The problem was that those 3000+ ppl were like sardines getting in our way!!!

Since I had no uniform, I had to borrow a jacket, since the nurse wouldn’t let me wear a white hospital gown with the St johns logo on it lol! But the Nurse’s jacket was much too big for me =.= so the other guy offered me his. Whee~~ I felt like I’m part of the crew now~~~ and the jacket was soo warm!! It was a bit cold the weather…surprisingly cold…

While I was helping out, giving the tools and stuff to the nurse and the other guy (.. I don’t know what to call him anymore ) I realised I was shaking. Wth!??! I can’t be cold!??! Must be… those nerves.. on no! they’re slowly taking over!! *panic* I can do it I can do it!

But it shows that I need to build up my confidence. There’s lots of aspects I need (or rather.. want) to improve on. I would like to improve on my teamwork also. I’m good at it.. just.. want to step it up a notch.

It’s so easy to pick out my own weaknesses than my strengths. I’m just not good enough to impress anyone. I rarely wear dresses cos of my body image, I don’t have a prefect hairstyle that I’m happy with (I maintain it everyday so it doesn’t damage), I’m on medication 70% of the time to make myself look pretty, glasses look horrible on me, if I wear contacts, I get mistaken for a 16 year old, I’m naturally shy and quiet, lives alone with my own routine so everywhere is untidy, and talks to 2 dogs who actually care. I don’t cook (there’s a difference between cooking and baking), clean, drink, be a nerd and study. I may be really idealistic but I can see reality. I have to admit, I can’t defend myself in this dangerous suburb…. I’m wishing that I don’t become a target.

Apparently I’m full of surprises…
… Perhaps “surprise should be my middle name”

I’ve been told that my personality is like “Chalk and cheese”…
… Perhaps I should be treated for Schizophrenia

hmm.. I think I like the surprise part.

I’m doing this mainly cos some people has been checking my nearly dead blog like.. once  day on average. a few eventful stuff here and there. but I really should avoid typing so long blogs so.. @.@

1. make Yoshi Cupcakes for Owen’s 8th bday. refer to “The Wooden Spoon” blog.

2. I went to Irymple (pronouced I-Rym-ple, not E-rym-ple) which was 2 in south of Mildura. 7 hour drive… stayed there for 3 nights. first shift was quiet and boring. the 2nd and very last shift for the semester was better. Learnt a lot more. Part of me misses rural placements. I like it more than the ones back at home tbh. Perhaps in 15 years time I’ll move to the country with my family (if they agree)

4. during the drive from the country to home, the bumper of the car and my numberplate and the other parts of the front of the car was covered with dead bugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lil annoying flies, mozzies, butterflies, dragonflies, a few blood stains here and there OMG IT STINKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! had to wash my car T.T

3. Easter break is soon! and my easter break is almost full with parties! =O

4. uni uni uni uni uni uni uni uni uni uni uni uni……… =.=ZzzZzzZzzZzzZzzZzz

ok.. keeping it short. can’t think of anything else atm

- Lots of swearing. Even while you work. depends on who the person is, they swear on just about anything.

- Don’t feel embarrassed when you need to do your business in front of me… everyone does it!

- Boys undressing in front of me (they ah.. forgot i was in the same building as them!)

- Apparently my second name is “Lisa” (when they forget my name, I’m called ‘Lisa’)

- politics… As much as i hate that topic, I just tend to fall asleep….

- touching… I’m getting less clingy… as more ppl start to touch me. (only happens when i have to be the dummy in a scenario)

- touching others. mwahahahahahahaha!!!!!

ehh.. that is all

Why?

I hate answering the ‘why’? It really annoys me. Especially my nephew’s “Why”’s. his is more of “why does *this* happen?”, you give an answer then the “why does *your answer* happen?”

IT JUST HAPPENS OK! JUST SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Some things in life are NEVER to be answered.

anyways… the first tutorial in footscray campus was interesting. We all expected that we would do some stretches, do a bit more hands on stuff.

Then our tutors comes in, takes the roll, and tells us to move the tables to the side and we bring our chairs to the centre and form a circle. after we done that, one girl mentioned that sitting in a circle reminded her that it’s like going to those groups where you discuss your problems (like gambling, smoking, etc think of it as Finding Nemo where the sharks got together and motivate each other to not eat fish)

Tutor: funny that you say that cos we’re sorta going to do that right now

(………………. oh no oh no oh no oh god no!)

the activity was an icebreaker. OMG WE ALL HATE ICEBREAKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tutor: you all gotta say your name and say “what inspired you to become a paramedic” Why do you want to be a paramedic?

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg what do i say?!?!!?!? i DON’T HAVE A FREAKING CLUE!

my answer to the class was horrible. I couldn’t think of a proper one to say. I basically said that I didn’t like my previous course… and all i remember was flicking through all the pages in VTAC and found paramedics. that was all.. I really didn’t know why.

I could give all sorts of responses that can be just as crazy:

- Cos I felt like God wanted me to do this job (i don’t feel a lot of religious ppl around me…)
- Cos i care (I might as well be a nurse!)
- Cos I wanted to see what the ambos do (been there done that and i’m still here)
- Cos I like the uniform and i can see myself in it (I think i’m gonna be shot at)
- Cos i want to save lives (sounds too boring..)
- Cos i want to be myself and not follow anyone’s footsteps.
- Cos i didn’t want to be a nurse since my whole family and even my doctor said so. Sort of a way of proving to them that I choose fate, not them.

yeah… don’t ask me why i want to be a paramedic. cos i dont have a proper answer for that kthnx

After about 4 months off uni, spending time with family and friends, and going back to uni with a rusty mind, I’m already stressed. Noticed my stress levels went sky-high when I get cranky as usual every weekend when I come home to see my family.

And I only had 11 hours of uni in that first week!

Main reasons for this week’s stress:

1. OMG so many assignments! One due in 2 weeks! And another in 3 weeks! And lots in 4^th week!
2. Annoyed that I still can’t access one subjects lectures/unit guide/everything because it’s more of a post-grad subject and doesn’t have the “Blackboard” option. Emailed the coordinator and (1) she spelt my name even tho I right my full name at the end…. (ok.. normally I don’t get personal about it cos 60%-70% ppl spell my name wrong anyway) but (2) she waved it off saying it’s the IT problem or that I have an older internet browser like 2002. My laptop is very much updated thankyou.
3. Also if I FAIL that subject, I can’t redo it because the subjects required for my course is changing again!
4. I have 2 placements (both in different sides of the city) within one week. And I have to wake up around 4:20am on those days because of the early starts they have (and also no accommodation was available near there) from experience from the other placements, I had drove fatigued…. And I’ll be even more sleepy… especially when I need to drive back to uni after one long day of a shift. Sorta hoping I can get sent home early but I’ll feel bad for leaving early…
5. My mum cleaned my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had to do some ‘treasure hunting’ to find a few objects. Dammit hadn’t she heard of ‘organised mess’?!?!?!

Yeah….. I should find another way to de-stress apart from:

1. Retail therapy (always works. But it hurts the wallet)
2. Eating (depending on my other moods, normally with just stress alone, I eat and eat and eat and don’t fill full)
3. Listening to music with face mask for 15 mins. Tho I have a habit of getting distracted so this doesn’t usually work….